THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

well wassup people, not much going on again.....im up late again and i need me some sleep, lol....well the 17th, tomorrow is my grandma's b-day, and her twin sister, she'll be like 60 something maybe 66 or 67 i dont know, since she never tells me what year she was born.....my lil cousin b-day was on the 13th, he turned 14 years old, awwwwwwwwwwww, i remember when i use to change his diapers, lol, him his brother thats 12 and his sister that just turned 11 on june 22, those are my babies, i cant believe they're getting so big and getting older i remember when they were little munchins, lol, and i use to give them piggy back rides, but i cant no more cuz they're too heavy, lol, but anyways.....

im waiting on my brother to get in from work i try not to cuz he's grown, but i worry about him, even though he gets on my nerves i love him to death, even though he may not think so since we argue alot, you know your usual brother and sister arguements, its been like that our whole life, but i love him and i hope he loves me too......

he's 18 now, he works at this theater and doesnt get in until like 2-3am sometimes, even later, since they start showing their last movie at 12am, so they have to wait until everyone leaves to start cleaning up, but hopefully this job will make him responsible, he had it send christmas day 2001, that was his first day, and his first job, but he quit for like 2 months and went back, cuz he needs to save up money to get an aprtment since my mom isnt letting him live with her when her lease is up this september, but thats a whole nother story........

but anyways i guess i'll just go to bed he should be coming in soon and i have to wash clothes before i go to work in the morning anyways......i told my cousin, the one i'll be living with about Mr "ima eat and run", lol i sent her a note on Bp, she told me what everyone has been telling me for years: TO STOP BEING SO SHY AND TRY TO BE MORE OUTGOING......i try to be ya know, but its hard, i really do think i have social anxiety, but maybe i dont, but ive talked to my doctor about it, she said i could try some meds that was back in march, but i havent tried any yet, but i'll try to be more outgoing this school year.......i guess i'll go with my friend Naimah when she goes job hunting downtown on friday since thats my day off, well i need to go to sleep, since i have to be at work at 4:30pm and have stuff to do before, and my brother just came in like 5 minutes later after i typed this, well 2 minutes, so i can go to bed now since i know he's safe, lol, peace......

posted by Toya @ 2:26 AM