what's next?
well, it's been about a month since i've let that loser go, and things are a lot better. i've seen him on campus about 2 times, but i walked right past him without saying anything or making eye contact. it was hard, but oh well. not that i want him, but our friendship is gone. i wish i could get that back, but i can't trust him. why be friends with someone you can't trust. i see on facebook he's tried somewhat to contact me. he keeps changing the details on how we met. then i changed it back to that we met in our building, but he's erase it and just put that we met in 2004. i guess he was trying to see if i'd ignore anything from him. i should've. oh well i have him blocked from my yahoo IM, so. lol, and he doesn't have a phone so he can't call me, though he can call from work, which he hasn't when i told him to not even bother calling me.i guess the hardest thing is trying not to be bitter about it. usually when i tell people if they ask me what happen, i just tell them that we don't talk anymore and oh well, or that he lied to me. the other day when i talked to one of my friends from the net and was telling him what happened over the phone, i started to get teary eyed. i guess i'm still a lil hurt. and it was not so much of being hurt, but it was more of being angry. i don't wanna become bitter. i want to be able to forgive and move on with life. i decided not to go to his graduation next month so far. i guess it's for the better.
i just found out about a few weeks ago that one of my cousins has full blown AIDS. he's a few months older than me. he's had a rough life, especially with his mom going to jail when he was like 8 and him, his older brother and younger sister all getting split up. now that my aunt is out of jail, she's trying to do right, and he just got out of jail and is staying with her. He didn't even tell her that he had AIDS, she found out from seeing his medication and he eventually told her. She said that he's in denial. it's so sad. he's had a messed up life. and his mom said he isn't taking his medication and she thinks that he wants to die. i don't know. all i%
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