THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

well its 3:09 am, im about to go to bed soon, i dont know why i be writing my post so later, but oh well, i just remember to write them then, well i was just on BP chatting, thats BlackPlanet.com for you slow people, lol, well the people that dont use that site, in the chat chatting as always......

well i had to work today, im glad that the one supervisor Nina wasnt there, she has an attitude or it seems like one most of the time, its so funny how when she's not there everything is cool, no one seems to have an attitude, but when she is everyone seems to be mad or something, thats so sad, its sad how one person can change the mood of everything......me being my usually last minute self sent my financial aid off late and im still not done, i need a damn copy of my W2 for it to go thru, and i think i left the other one at school, the first bill is due on August 8th and my aid hasnt went thru, whichs means ima have to pay that first bill which was $1,400 something, which theres no way in hell that i have that, but they didnt take my room and board off, which will be like $2,300 for this semester, since the whole bill for the whole semester the tuition, room and board is like $4,000 something, but when the room and board is off it'll be like $2, 000 something then i'll just have to pay like $500 hopefully, then once the financial aid goes thru, i will get that reinbursed (sp) cuz i thin like it said on the school's web page, they paying for everything, i just need to send the W2 to verify......ima have to use my whole check that i got today and the next one and get some money from my mama to pay this first bills, cuz she already gotta pay for my apartment that im moving in with my cousin, well my trailer........well i go back to school in 2 weeks and like 3-4 days, im kinda excited......

a new school year, new people to meet, try and make new friends and go out, well hopefully my cousin will help me with that, maybe even find a b/f finally....but right now im kinda hurt, mr Eat n Run, yea i chatted with him on BP some minutes ago, well like 30 minutes ago i asked him what he be doing with his days off since he always saying he busy, he said "i be chilling and then go be with my girl" or something like that, i was like i didnt know you had a girl, he said yea he do......see thats why he was acting all funny i guess, all this time he couldve been told me that, i couldnt spent my time concentrating on someone else instead of thinking, "well maybe he might like me", see i hate crushes cuz they hurt.....

though im not really all that hurt cuz he was already acting bogus and i was like forget him, but i am a lil hurt cuz i didnt, and yea i do like him, well i did, cuz after he told me that it was like ok thats it, i dont wanna be bothered with him like that, cuz i dont be up and worrying and crushing on no boys with girl friends, cuz i would never try to talk to some other girl's man, cuz i wouldnt want no one to do that to me, with the exception of 2 boys in h.s, well i liked them for a long time and i still do, whether they got a girl or not, but with mr Eat n Run, im not gonna be worried no more, he did me bogus anyways, he probably didnt like me, which i dont think he did at all, but he shouldnt known i liked him, i mean come on it had to be obvious, but thats ok, and if you are reading this, and i wont say your name, cuz you know who you are, if i put this web link on my BP page and you happen to read it, you are so BOGUS, *sniff*, i'll be ok though, just a lil hurt, but I WILL get over it, cuz it really wasnt all that serious....but man i really want a BOYFRIEND, ugh, but i just need to be patient and so anxious for one......

its so funny though how guys online like me, but i cant find a guy, either lil boys or old men are hitting on me, i hope they dont think im stuck up, cuz im not, im one of the most down to earth persons out there, lol, well i guess everyone say that, but really, for real i get along with alot of people, if you cool with me and respect me and have a good spirit, i'll be cool with you and do the same, but why cant i find one, or why doesnt someone approach me??? the world may never know, but anyways its 3:26, lol wow i've been typing this long, lol see im a fast typer and i need to go to bed cuz i have some things to do, not much, just go get lunch with my friend, walk around outside, and figure out whats going on with my life, well goodnight, peace, God bless and all that good stuff, until next time America *like jerry springer, lol* take care of your self and others.......

posted by Toya @ 3:30 AM