THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

well hey people, i havent done much this week, well yes i have lol, well the last 2 days i did.....on wednesday i went to go see my aunt thats in jail, i havent seen her in about 3 years, so it was really good to go see her....she's been in for about 12 years, thats a long time, we all miss her alot, and its hard to and see her because she's about 3 hours downstate.....well she is doing fine and she has about 14 months left....she says she cant take another year in there....i wont go all into why she's in jail because that isnt people bizniz, but we will just be glad when she gets out.....

so me, my aunt thats outta town from maryland, and my 2 lil cousins went down to see her.....we played some cars games, talked caught up on some things that's been going on with us, we left well my aunt came to pick me up at around 6am, cuz she's staying at my other aunt house, and she took 2 of my other aunt's 3 kids with us, lol, my lil cousins are so silly, they had me cracking up driving there, their 14 and 11, the boy 14 and the girl 11, i remember when they were babies, and they grew up so fast.....and its good to talk with my grandma, these are family on my mama's side....well my grandma is 60 and about to be 61 this year, and my aunt, it's good to see her, she's been in maryland for about 5-6 years, and she always come back home to chicago to visit, but she's going back to maryland on this saturday......

well today, well yesterday since it is 3:32am and a new day....we went to the mall around my house out in the burbs, in lincolnwood, its not that far about a 15 minute drive since i am still in the city, but close to the city limits....i bought me some shoes out of Parade of shoes, they are cute, their black with a mule heel, about 2 inches, and they have a strap to go around my leg, i needed to get them since i can barely find shoe's in my size which i wont say what it is, lol, and i got me a cut lil messenger bag from old navy....we hit the mall at about 4 something pm, maybe 4:30pm, well thats when she picked me up, we sat and ate at the food court, i hand me a cheese burger, cheese fries, and a chocolate milk shake, then later i had a red ICEE cuz it was hot, that was before we left the mall, my aunt and her friend, that drove up with her, bought some inscents, they have a cool water inscent that smells really good, then we was just talking, lol my aunt was talking about all the fights she use to have.....

it was just good to get out the house, you know, since i go out much....then we went to go downtown to Buchanham (sp) foutain [lol its a shame i dont know how to spell landmarks in Chicago, smh, lol], you know the fountai that was in "LOVE JONES" with lorenz tate and nia long, and the fountain thats at the beginning of "MARRIED WITH CHILDREN", since that show was suposed to be set in Chicago.....well its downtown, it looks pretty at night time cuz they light up the lights so the water be different colors, then they shoot the water up real high, since it was hot, like every summer there was alot of people out down there around the fountain, and since the wind blows it blows the water all over, and that felt good, cool us down a bit, since it was about 90 something degrees.....then we came back to my house and i made my aunt and her friend some cd's since i have about 800 songs, not as much as my friend trevon since he has over 1,000, lol but its enough, and as soon as i get dsl, cable or the ethernet again, ima catch up to him, lol, but i mad about 6 cd's for them 3 cd's each, i shouldve charged them lol, but thats ok i gave it to them for free, they left about a lil over a hour ago to go back to my aunts house, cuz thats where they staying at, she's not too far from my mom's house, thats where im staying for the summer.....

oh yea i go back to school in about 9 days, im kinda excited, a new year to start fresh, and i will finally have my own room, lol, i go back on the 10th......well i didnt go straight to sleep, as ya'll can see since im still on here, cuz i am tired, but i had to get online and chat with my people on AOL and chat with my people on BP, i chatted with dude, mr eat n run im cool with that now, maybe he just didnt know how to tell me that he had a girlfriend and didnt want to hurt my feelings, or maybe he didnt think about that at all, since they say guys are dumb, lol, but im cool and ima move on, and he's still cool i seen he got another BP page and shouted me out (sorry if you ever read this, and you know who you are, but i was mad, but hey we still cool, and besides, dont no one know im talking about you, lol, so dont worry, lol), so no beef, lol well on my side cuz i dont think he ever had beef with me, or if he knew i had it, but im cool now and its forgoten, but i dont think if we did go out it wouldnt had worked out since i am still a virgin, lol, yea a 20 year old virgin, you dont find many of them around now.....

not saying cuz im a virgin, but since im not having sex, what guy would wanna be with me? and i wouldnt want to be pressured into having none, ya know.....but hopefully the Lord will have someone out there for me....my friend was trying to hook me up with this dude from her job thats' her friend's friend that works there also, but i met the guy, his name is jerry on monday, he seemed cool, but he's just as shy as i am.....i called him about 2 times, cuz i was waiting on him to call, but he didnt, well i dont think he did, and my friend said he said it seemed like i didnt wanna talk to him, but then i didnt the way my friend was, she was like "well you give her your number and you give him yours"...so i just stood there looking at her like what the hell she doing, then i guess i didnt move fast enough for her, so she wrote down my number for me and gave me his, smh, we was at their job, but im like ok, but like i said he seems cool, they said he's a nice guy, and all, but we will see, but i dont think im really feeling him, maybe if i actually talk to him i would, but the 2 times that ive called him, he didnt pick up or have an answering machine or nothing, but thats ok.....

the 18 year old i still havent caught, i called about 4-5 times, and didnt no one pick up, but oh well, he was still 18 and in high school, he was fine though, real cute, lol, but i cant be messing with lil boys, i dont wanna be a R. Kelly, lol, but i go back to school, and hopefully new and great things will come my way, im looking at the time and its like 4:01 am, i shouldve been had my butt in the bed, knowing that i gotta wash clothes, lol, but anyways im out for now, i'll try to write more everyday, but probably not, lol, and i know my blogs might be confusing since i dont be using the right punctuation, but when im up and in the day time and rested and my mind is straight, thats when i'll use it, lol, ok im outtie, goodnight people.....

posted by Toya @ 4:10 AM