THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

well people lets see.....whats been going on with me.....well nothing much, this is now the 4th week of school starting, damn almost a month of school done went past.....well i went home on saturday, left c'dale (thats carbondale) at 8:30am, got to chicago at like 2pm, i got to my house at 2:45pm, my cousin was going up to michigan to see her brother, her and her mother and sister and my grandma and uncle went, so i got my ride to chicago.....

ok so since my mama is moving out of chicago to the burbs at the end of the month, and yesterday was the last time that i was gonna go home until thanksgiving, i was looking forward to this pizza from this pizza place by my house called jb's/alberto's.....now thats like the best pizza ever, i've been eating there since i was lik 9 years old, and im 20 going on 21, so i was looking forward to that last slice, now my cousin told me that that pizza is gonna taste nasty cuz i was looking forward to eating it too much, and guess what, it did.....UGH!!!!! i was sooooooooo pissed, that was the NASTIEST slice of pizza that i've gottewn from there since i been eating from there all these years, smh it was gross and i was sad that it was, but the gyro from this other place i like tasted ok, not as good either, and i was looking forward to the gyro too.....

so we leave chicago at like 6:15pm, cuz they got back at 6pm, and we got down to c'dale at 10:33 at the house on the dot, lol me and my cousin, cuz she was driving......but there hasnt been much that i've been doing, i've seen a couple cute boys in my classes, but i'm not gonna be all like "ohhh he's cute" and crushing on no one, im thru with crushes, im still mad that i found out a week or 2 ago that this boy that i was like so inlove with in h.s came back to chicago cuz things didnt work out for him in florida and he is STILL with his girlfriend from 12th grade, and my friend was like knowing him he's probably married to her....i really wish that i told him that i liked him, cuz he was such a nice guy, but i was shy and scare to tell him, i had so many chances too, but on my prom pic i gave him i just wrote "ima miss you alot, take care", so maybe he kinda figured it out i dont know, but when i finally tried to tell him he was gone no one had his number then i heard he moved to florida, but now that he's back, he's still with the girl, but oh well, i'll get over it, hopefully, lol, but i should get over it, i've had alot of crushes, i wasnt even thinking of him until my friend brought him up.....

but maybe i should be a lil bit more friendly, cuz lets see i think that was late week wednesday this boy when i was in the financial aid office was trying to talk to me, but i kept giving him short answers, cuz i didnt wanna talk to him, cuz i thought he was trying to holla at me like that, and i didnt want to holla at him cuz i wasnt attracted to him, lol, but maybe he wasnt, and thats something i need to stop, you know thinking that every guy that might come up to talk might be trying to holla, cuz maybe they're not, maybe they're just being friendly, lol, but no matter what i always think they be trying to holla, oh well, plus i had on a tank top that day, and he was staring at my boobs, and i didnt appreciate that....but anyways, i do wanna date, so i'll try to be a lil more friendly and approachable and stop looking all mean and ish when dudes be around, i think i scare them off, lol.....

lately i've been praying a bit more, well i've just been praying like i use to, i try and pray before i go to bed everynight like i did when i was younger, these people on this Earth need prayer and my family and just everyone, and i've been praying for them......today is the 10th now, well its like 1:38am, so tomorrow will be Sept. 11th, and it will be a year since the 9-11-01 attacks last year....man i can't believe that its been a year, what happened last year was just so horrible and i just pray that the families of the victims are getting over this, well they may never get over it, but i just pray that God ease the pain that they're going thru, i just hope and pray and wish, that we can just all get along, all of the countries, cuz i really dont like all of this war ish, cuz too many people have been dying.....well i have class at 12:30 so i need to be going, goodnight all, and PRAY, aight, peace and God bless.....

posted by Toya @ 1:48 AM