THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

ok well wassuppppppppppppppppppppppp? lol, i bet no one reads this anyways, but anyhoo, im going home later on today at 4pm.....i need to have my ass in the bed....FINALS ARE OVER!!!!! CHRISTMAS BREAK IS HERE!!!! ANOTHER SEMESTER IS GONE!!!!! lol im so happy, now i can just go home and rest for a month, and i wont be back until like jan 8th or the 12th, or something, but school starts on January 13, 2003.......wow, 2003, mmmm mmmm mmm, another year, wow....THANK YOU LORD!!!!! I'm Greatful for every year that i make it thru and is able to see.....well well well, this semester is over, so im leaving SIUC, and going back to Chicago for a month.....hopefully i wont have to sit at home all bored and ish....i know i probably will.....so ima try to go out downtown to the museums and what not, window shop or something.....maybe i can meet some people.....there's been some really cool dudes i've been chatting with online, but too bad they dont live in Chicago or in Illinois at all, or at least close to it, gosh, well a couple in IL, but see they dont like me like that, all of them see me as lil sister, well maybe except for 2, but they too far away.......but anyways hopefully like i said i'll go out, and my cousin gonna take me to the club, cuz i asked her, cuz i never been, so hopefully i'll have fun, i dont wanna drink or nothing cuz i dont like the taste of liquor...thought i did have a drink the friday after my b-day from Red Lobster, a strawberry margarita, it was ok, but i could taste the liquor in it, and i did get a lil goofy, well tipsy from it, but just a little....but anyways i need to pack my bags and go to sleep, my train leaves at 4pm, until next time people, well in a month, take care of you selves, and peace and God bless, MERRY CHRSITMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!!

posted by Toya @ 4:13 AM 0 comments

ok lets see, its 10:03pm and today is my 21st birthday.....i didn do nothing today, why??? cuz im a lame.....but im happy because God has brought me thru another year and im thankful for that.....but im sort of sad, only my mama called me today to tell me happy birtday, my friend she sent a text message to say happy b-day, and i called my father after i got his card and he told me happy b-day he was gonna call me later....and this morning my cousin told me happy b-day and her mther later on on the phone, and my other cousin's grandma when i called to tell her happy b-day cuz she's turning 17, and then people online been telling me happy b-day since like 12am up until now.....but man i wish i would have went out, but heck i got work to do, finals are next week, and i have alot of work due this week.....but im glad i made it thru another year.....i prayed when it hit 12am, well actually about 12:30 am, to thank God for bringing me thru another year, so i've been doing that for the last couple of years.....and i asked him for a sign on something that i want, if i should just go for it, or if i should just be patient.....and when i woke up, it was snowing, so i guess thats my sign, so i guess ima go for it or maybe not i dont know, lol but i forgot if i asked for the sign to be patient or go for it, so i think it was for to go for it, but anyways i will see on friday....i went to get my ice cream cake since i didnt have a b-day cake in about 3 years, yea im a big kid, i dont care....i wanted to go out and make snow angels, but i didnt, lol.....i love the snow, and it usually dont snow down here, but it did my first year, and this is my 3rd year......i know ima see alot of snow in chicago anyways.....and i will go out to eat this weekend since wednesday isnt a good day to go out anyways, i might go to a party or to a club too, if theres any good ones down here, but im not a party person, so i dont know yet....but yea!!!! im 21 today!!!! *doing my "im 21 today" dance*, lol.....but anyhoo, i needs to go, so peace and God bless.....

posted by Toya @ 10:12 PM 0 comments

well got damn, i havent been by here in a minute.....i finally had my counseling session, and it went fine.....i stayed down in carbondale, carbonhell as this boy off BP says, until tuesday with my cousin since she had to work, and drove back to chicago with her, i was gonna leave last sunday, but i know i wouldnt had wanted to drive by my self, so i stayed here until she left, i just got back sunday night, well tonight, well yesterday which was a few hours ago and got in at like 10:18pm, lol, thats the time i told my cousin that we was gonna get in at too....my thanksgiving break was pretty good, it was just good to be home.....i went to visit my grandparents to try and get them out of the stone age, i brought "Ali" and "The Temptations" movies for them to watch, i had to open up the VCR to fix it, because they havent used it in like 5 years, or maybe more, but we had fun.....on thanskgiving my mama did cook, but we went to my step father's daughter house, which was ok.....it was her frst time cooking thanksgiving dinner, her and her husband, the food was ok, but it couldve been better.....then me and my mama went to my brother's job to see him.....he lost alot of weight, so that was weird to see because he's eben a lil husky for quiet some time, buthe's eating healthy, i just hope he dont get too thin, and he's also growing a beard now, lol, awwww my lil brother got a beard, but he's doing good and i was happy to see him, even though we only stayed there for about 10 min, since its on the other side of town, well back where we use to live by and my mama live int he far out burbs thats not even close to there.....but we drove over there to see him and bring him a plate of food, so i made him about 3 big plates since he had to work and didnt come over....but i need sleep now, im kinda stressed, this is the last week of regular class and finals are next week, and my b-day is in 2 days, December 4th! hooray for me!!! lol, but i just want to thank God right now for letting me make it to this point and hopefully if its his will, he'll let me see many more birthdays to come, so thank you Lord for letting me live this long and to be able to have famliy because some people dont have that, in Jesus name, Amen.....but anyways, good night people, or whoever reads this ish, and peace and God bless.....

posted by Toya @ 3:46 AM 0 comments