Monday, August 04, 2003

Well im back, and today is the first day of my so called break.....i've been in school non stop since january, and i start back 2 weeks from today!.....i didnt have a summer break cuz i started summer school that monday right after the spring semester ended......on thursday was the last of my summer classes, so i hope id id ok...i got a B in my class during intercession, smh a 89.47%! and he couldnt just give me the A and give me the 90%, but *sniff* anyways i'll get over it.....

My cousin graduated on this past saturday...Aug 2nd 2003....im proud of her...she went back to school and finally got her degree....but it wasnt her fault it took this long, money problems can keep you out of school, and i hope i dont have to face them, but i think i do.....but anyways, she graduated, and we where all excited....lol she screamed out Hallelujah after she got off the stage, and our family and people fromt he church we go to here was there, so thatw as really nice...her mom, 2 brothers, sister inlaw, her 2 nephews and niece, my mom and step father, my grandma and her brother all came down here and like 8 people from the church....i just cant wait until its time for me to walk across that stage in like 1 and a half or 2 years, a least by may 2005, but hopefully by december 2004 i will be outta this school.....

I still havent found a boyfriend (ugh), but its cool....i am making friends though, and i thank God for that, because that is something that i have been praying for....for me to be more social and smile a lil more and to talk to people more and to not wait around for them to talk to me....i know people get sick of coming up to me and trying to make me talk, i would be sick of it too, so i'm trying to stop that....and i rebuke the spirit of depression and i dont want it to EVER come near me again, in the name of Jesus, Amen.....so thank you God for doing that for me....i guess this social anxiety is going away, cuz hey, i joined the choir! lol thats something i wouldve probably never did a few years ago.....and i thank God for that, and people he has put in my life to help me to over come that, though it hasnt been easy, im working on it, and im not going to put up with it anymore...my cousin for getting me to be more social, my mama and gradma for encouraging me...the counsoler i was seeing this past school year who is now gone because this was her intership, but i just talked to her and needed someone to talk to, and she was there for that....and im thankful for the people at this church down here that have tried to get me to talk more, and they are all sweet and im glad i did end up at this church (Hopewell)...and all the other people at my home church (Mt. Sinai) that's always tried to get me to come out and be more social and smile....bro. bell, my old sunday school teacher sis. vinson, my other old sunday school teacher sis. hides(sp), sis vera vaugn ont he usher board, and my other sunday school teacher i use to have, sis. marilyn jefferson....and to the people at the church Hopewell...thank ya'll for trying to make me feel welcomed, even tho i've been there for a while, thanks for saying hey to me or just a smile on your face...*sniff*.....anyways.....

This weekend was VERY hectic and funny...as i said my cousin graduated and got her BA degree from SIU, tho she's 27, it doesnt matter, she finally got it....besides she didnt start down here right away and had to take time off and work....but the family was here and Thank God they're gone back home, tho i love them dearly....my mama is a fool, lol she's so silyl, i love her to death tho, and my step father is a fool, well heck all of them my grandma, and aunt, lol, they had me and my cousin cracking up rolling on the floor, this weekend was so hilarious....then the people from the church came over, smg, it was a mess, that one boy at church is a dang on clown, had us cracking up...the Pastor came too, he's nice, and God sent him to shepard over the church and the church has grew quite a bit....then my grandma made some butter cookies and those negros ate them all up! lol i was SOOO mad....but thats ok, she gave a couple of people the recipe, and i'll get it from her later, so i will be making some...those cookies be sooo good, they just melt in ya mouth.....but anyways i need to go cuz im at work, tho my boss isnt here today, i guess i'll read a book or something, but im out, PEACE and GOD BLESS!

One more thing...i might not be moving in by my self, my cuz needs a place, so if i can get out of my lease, i will, but other then that i guess i will be by my self, i do want to live by my self, but then again the rent and bills would be cheaper with a room mate, and i dont know if im ready yet to live by my self, but i know that i will have to eventually, but anyways, thats all, just pray for me and my family and church family, and for everyone, and just stay prayfule, GOD BLESS!

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