Friday, August 20, 2004

hey people, it's me again....after like 4 months....alot has been going on....im doing ok, kinda happy, well not really happy, but just alive you know? glad to be living....things are looking up for me....i got a guy im talking to back home, and he's real sweet, but i dont know yet....i can say that God has delivered me from the social anxiety! Praise God! i moved again last week.....into a apartment thats it the size of a box, but its a blessing that i got that, but in 4 months i might move again into this apartment that goes by your income.....also, i will be graduating on Friday, May 13, 2005, at 5pm from the College of Liberal Art (COLA)...YEA!!! im SOOOOOO excited!!! i am finally graduating! but now i need to find a job! :-/ or go to grad school...i havent made up my mind yet...and i dont know if ima go back to Chicago or stay here for grad school....i guess it depends on whether i get a job or not, but i know the guy im talking to would like for me to go back home, cuz im 5.5 hours south of Chicago, but i didnt have anything i would do after graduation figured out before i even started talking to him, so i still dont know..i might just stay in Carbondale until i get stuff off my credit and i might as well go to grad school, and it'll be easier to get in here....im at work now since my boss isnt in today, and she lets me get on the pc when she isnt here.....we got this womens conference going on at my church next weekend, and it's going to be excellent, i know it will....we have a speaker, Dr. Wanda Turner coming in, and she's spoke at a few T.D. Jakes "Woman Thou Art Loosed" conferences......and oh yea i went to ATL back in July with my church to T.D. Jake's "Mega Fest" conference, which was EXCELLENT! i seen him preach, and Juanita Bynumm, and Paula White...it was great! i feel that i got a break thru, maybe not a full one, but i actually shouted! which is something i dont do in church, but im breaking out of this shell, and im trying to push everyday....oh yea my cousin got married!!! It was such a beautiful wedding! she was so beautiful! and i might add i was looking pretty good myself, i was a bridesmaid! i was so nervous and the shoes hurt my feet and i had a problem walking down the isle, and i was scared i would trip and fall, but i didnt, but everything was good, pretty much perfect, and they pulled it off with the help of family and friends and the church...and it was really fun, she had a ensemble sing as the wedding party and her walked down the isle to this song called "Manifest" and we marched out on i believe it's Richard Smallwood "Anthem of Praise"....and we came back in after we marched out cuz they was still singing and was just clapping and singing along...it was a very blessed and God Filled wedding...just as ALL weddings should be! also she sung him a song! i wanted to cry but i couldnt let my makeup run...well school starts monday and all the students are coming back today, well the new incoming students came back yesterday.....well i need to go, and this is enough for now...maybe i'll post alot more cuz it seems that they set the site up a bit better...but i havent been on in 4 months, anyways, peace! :)

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