Did you know...
...that Glynn Turman, you know Preach from "Cooley High", and Col. Taylor on "A Different World" was originally cast to play Hans Solo in "Star Wars" but George Lucas changed his mind and picked Harrison Ford instead? I was looking through that IMDb website and found that. Don't mind me I always find out little random facts, but man think about it, if he was in that movie, would Star Wars have been that big? Would Princess Leia been in love with a black man? Would "Star Wars" have done as well as it has if Hans Solo was a black man? I don't know, but i did find that interesting (also Billy Dee Williams auditioned for the role as well). Ya'll have a blessed weekend! :-)
Here's the site it was on:
http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0877270/bio
They traded my husband!
Yes, Chris Webber (Just look at that smile, all 6'10 of his self!) has been traded to the 76'ers *cries*....now it's not like i don't like the 76'ers because i love Iverson, but why did the Kings trade Webber?!?! I know alot of you, especially you males, will say that Webber is weak, but forget ya'll....I was sad when he got traded to the Kings from the Washington Bullets (Now the Wizards), then i got over it...now i'm torn as to who to root for...Mike Bibby is still on the Kings, but they traded my husband, but i do like the 76'ers, so i guess i can still root for both.....it doesnt matter though, because the Bulls are still my favorite team, but the Kings was my 2nd favorite, because of Webber of course, *cries* And no i don't watch the NBA just to look at the guys, i do like the game of Basketball too, and i did use to play in highschool (Fros-Soph) for two years, though i sucked at it...just because you're tall (5'10-5'11) doesnt mean that you can ball.
Sixers Have C-Webb
Philadelphia acquired five-time All-Star
Chris Webber on Wednesday, Feb. 23, in a deal with Sacramento that sent
Brian Skinner,
Kenny Thomas and
Corliss Williamson to the Kings. Philadelphia also acquired forwards
Matt Barnes and
Michael Bradley.
The deal gives the Sixers some lift as they head into the stretch run tied with the Celtics for the lead in the Atlantic. Webber -- who is averaging 21.3 points, 9.7 rebounds, 5.5 assists and 1.48 steals per game -- is considered one of the top power forwards in the game.
Philadelphia GM Billy King is also excited about the deal because he thinks it will help the team's talented, young core to grow.
"I think, the way we play, it will allow our young guys to develop more, because now you've got a big guy who can make passes and hit the jump shot," King told Sixers.com.
The Kings, meanwhile, now have a wealth of options up front in Skinner, Thomas and Williamson. Thomas is averaging 11.3 points and 6.6 rebounds per game, and his hard-nosed, close-to-the-basket style of play should serve as a good complement to Kings frontliners Peja Stojakovic and Brad Miller.
Williamson (10.8 ppg, 3.7 rpg) is one of the most efficient reserves in the game, and is a great scorer in the paint. And while underutilized this season, Skinner is coming off a 2003-04 campaign that saw him average 10.5 points and 7.3 rebounds for Milwaukee, and is still considered a talented, physical presence in the lane.
http://www.nba.com/news/trade_deadline_2005.html
A New Site
I found this link when i was on Gabi's blog. It's nice, it just started like last week, so go check it out. It's a forum for black bloggers, so pass it along once you register. http://blackbloggersonline.com/
Why why why???
Why me? Why do strange things always happen to me? I some of you may recall i mentioned in a previous post about how this collection agent guy was flirting with me. I think i talked about that just a little bit around January 1st. So ok. This is the same guy that i've been dealing with while i've been trying to slowly pay off my Verizon phone bill (for my landline) since around the middle of December. He made the comment before when i asked him to hold on because i had another call, and when i clicked back he was like "oh so that's your boyfriend?" and i was like no. So it's been funny to me that this collection agent guy rep. whatever he calls his self was flirting, because most of them are assholes and they try to threaten you to get the money out of you. Which he was sort of doing at first, but was also flirting. As the weeks went on he was less of an asshole, and more flirty.
I don't think that i'm a flirt, and i don't know if i come off as a flirt. Actually i'm too shy to flirt, but i dont know, maybe i flirt when someone else starts to flirt with me, i dont know. Or maybe i don't flirt in person, but it's easier for me to flirt with someone over the phone since i dont have to see them in person (i am still a little shy, i havent broken completely out of my shell yet). So i was bored some days ago on this past Saturday, and i called the 1-800 number for the company and dialed his extension. I wanted to ask him if he was flirting with me, but also see where my balance was so that i can make another payment. He didnt answer and he called me back yesterday. So we had small talk, he asked how my weekend was and what i do. I told him nothing since i dont go out and that i spend time at church or with people from church, or either in school, and that since i've always been shy i never really have gone out. So he was like he goes to church too, and was like "Well thats good". So we're just talking, and he's like "You got a sexy voice" and i was like "What?" because i wasnt sure of what he said. Like i know what he said, but i wanted to make sure i wasnt hearing things. I was like "What type of collection agent are you? Don't they record these calls or monitor you?", and i asked that because i use to do telemarketing and they monitored us sometimes. He was like "Well if there's an echo or a click on the line then yea they are, but they're cool". So i'm like ok. I remember before he said "Well i have to be your friend until the bill is paid", but i think he's being a little bit TOO friendly.
So we're just talking and he was sounding like he didnt want to go and was like "Well you can give me a call back friday when you get paid to pay on the bill" and i was like "Well do you want me to call you back before then?" and he was like "No friday is fine" and that he didnt want to take advantage of his job so he had to go. No i have a problem of talking to folks i've never met in life and just seeming like i've known them for years, i don't know, thats just the type of person i am maybe. So like when they call a area code shows up, actually it was a 717 area code. So about 15 minutes after getting off the phone with him, i see a 717 area code come up. So i'm like ok this must be him again and he probably forgot to tell me something about my bill, or just wanted to call me again.
So i answer and i'm like "Hello?" and he's like "Yes may i please speak with Latoya?" and i'm like "Yes" and he was like "Yea this is Mike, i know i shouldnt be doing this, but i got your number from my job and i'm calling you from my cell phone". OK!!! I was like WTF?!?!?!!? In my head i was thinking that, but i couldnt say nothing. So i was like "Ok" and he was like "Well i know i'm wrong, but if you don't want to talk to me i'll delete your number from my cell phone and the next time you'd hear from me is dealing with business (my bill), and who knows, if i'm talking to you know, and getting to know you, maybe one day you'll end up in the Philly area or something". I was SHOCKED! I couldnt believe that! First he was already unprofessional with flirting with me, but flirting is harmless right? Now he put my cell phone number (since that's the only number i have) and put it in his phone to call me to talk? CRAZINESS. SO what did i do? Like a dummy.....I was like "Ok no that's ok, we can talk" but i was still shocked. Why the heck i said that's ok, i dont know. While i was on the phone with him, my bestfriend back home called twice. The first time i told her and she was like "ohhhh kayyy, is he gonna clear your bill for you or something? pay it or something?" and i was like naw. She called again and was like "You still on the phone with that psycho?" LOL. I don't know why i agreed to talk to him. He had a nice voice, and he's around the same age as me, 25 years old, but i don't know. When i told my cousin back in January that this guy was flirting with me, she was like "see he's flirting with you and don't even know what you look like, he must be ugly then" LOL. I guess i can talk to anyone. My problem was that since i was so shy, i couldnt talk to folks in person, but i could talk up a storm over the phone or on the internet as you can see by my long post and my long comments i leave on people's blogs, lol. I can go on and talk for hours and get not get bored. Just like alot of folks i use to talk with in chatrooms on BP and AOL for hours, or on the Yahoo messenger or AIM for hours. I guess i use to do that since i didnt have any friends. I don't even talk to the friends i have that long. Guy's i chatted with on BP and some i met, i would talk to them on the phone for 2 or more hours everyday. I'd talk to them online for about the same amount of time also. Even with "James", the first time we talked on the phone was for like 7 hours, and we didnt get tired of each other. We talked until like 6am. It's weird. Guys will talk to me for that long, but it seemed as though after they met me, the few i've met from the net, they wouldnt talk to me ever again after that. It took them about a week. Even with "James" we dont talk as much as we use to, but it's because our schedules aren't fitting together and we're both busy. We've slowly went from talking for 7 hours, to 2 hours, to a hour, now down to like 15-30 minutes every other day. Maybe it's just that when you first start talking to someone, it's kinda exciting and you're just trying to learn everything you can about them. Me and the guy, the Collection guy Mike, talked for about 2 hours. After the first hour i was ready to get off because i was still thinking "this is so weird" and i started to ask him, well about 5 times "Why did you think it was ok to call me?". He was like "Well you sounded like a nice person, someone i would like to talk to, so i just wanted to take that chance". Did this negro not think about how if i was or wasnt a nice person that i could get him fired for crossing the line? But i am a nice person so i couldnt do that :-/ . So within that time talking to him i found out alot about him. He asked me stuff, like if iw as seeing anyone, and i was like yes, kinda sort of, and i told him about "James" and how i like him a whole lot, but we're just "friends" now. Then he started talking and just started telling me everything, and answered questions i asked. These are some things i found out: -He told me he was the youngest child-His mother took them to church all the time and didnt want them to do anything if it conflicted with them being in church and would have a fit if it did -He lost his virginity at 9 years old to another girl around his age (WTF???) and didnt have sex again until he was 13-He had sex when he was 13 because his older cousin who was 18 told his 15 yr old girlfriend to break him off some because he didnt want himt o grow up and be gay since he was in a housefull of women-His friends are starting to think he's gay and tell him "don't come out and tell us you're gay man" because he doesnt sleep around like they do-He doesnt sleep around because he's scared of catching AIDs so he rather talk to women instead-He loves women-He has alot of females friends and alot of females he talk to-He really likes a friend of his, but she's in New York, so he doesnt think the long distance thing would work out since he tried it before-He's from Harrisberg (sp), PA-He went to a Community College for 2 years, but he got so into working, that he quit school-He works 2 jobs, the other is at a shoe store because he loves shoes-He has 155 pairs of gym shoes (Jordans, Air Force one's, ect.)OK, lol, this is all crazy. I guess i seem trust worthy, and i am, because folks seem to tell me just everything about them, plus i'm good at listening and letting people vent, because i be needing to vent alot of times and i hope that they'd do the same for me. I just don't understand why folks do that, but i guess it's ok, we all need someone to talk to, and i guess sometimes i do it too. So we're just talking, and i'm trying to get off the phone with him, which i couldve done a long time ago, but then i kinda wanted to keep talking cuz i was bored and was sort of enjoying the convo. So i finally said "Ok let me go, i using too many of my daytime minutes" and he's like "Wll if you ever want to talk again, just give me a call" so i'm like ok bye. I don't know why i talked to him that long, or why i talked to him at all, but i guess i felt a little intrigued and flatter that he called me. I don't know, or maybe i talked because i'm attention hungry. Actually scratch that, because i couldve called anyone else if i was bored. But i don't know. I just like talking to people. I did feel bad talking to him though because it felt as if i was cheating or something, and i know that's how "James" said he felt when he'd talk to other females besides his mother an I. It's weird. I did tell "James" about what happened earlier on AIM, and he was like, or said something along the lines of (don't quote me on this): "You seem to have a pleasant personality that comes through when someone is talking ont he phone with you. It makes them want to get to know you and you just really seem like a nice person. That's a method of attraction". Shhh, i was like "It's a curse! alot of guys seem like they end up having a little crush on me but when they meet me they stop talking to me". But he was like it's not a curse and that it's just my personality. I know he probably said it more elequently then i put it, but it was something along those lines, and i probably left something out. I didn't have to tell him about it, but i felt like i had to. I hope he wasnt mad at me because of that, but i'll see when i talk to him in a little bit hopefully. I know he'll probably read this too, so don't be mad! :-)It seems like people are coming out of the woodworks since i only have my mind on "James". "Yellow Man" seems to be popping up, and i don't want him anymore. This collection agent guy calling me. and no today this guy i use to talk to on BP that's in TX and use to work for United Airlines IM'ed me. I havent talked to him in months, well actually almost a year. It was always on and off with talking to him. He use to say that he'd fly from Dallas because he wanted to meet me so bad and that he liked me. We met in the College Chat like 3 years ago, well no i think 4 years ago. Today he said that he wish he was 4 years younger and that he could do things over so he'd be in Chicago so he could be with me. I was like "umm ok, what makes you think that i wouldve wanted to be with you. Why do you say you like me so much?" He was saying that (now we've ONLY talked to each other on the net and the phone, and he's seen my pics, but he knows nothing about me), that my voice was sexy, and that i was sexy, and that my personality, and that i was just a cool chick with a good sense of humor and that i was funny, and that i was classy and had the total package, something about me being so innocent, and that it was just something about me that he just had to have. LMAO WTF? This dude never met me! Why do they act like that just from talking to me? I don't understand that. I would always have some guy from the net "liking" me, but i could never get a boyfriend. I guess me being so shy stopped that. I've never had a guy for real, in real life tell me that i was sexy or say anything along those lines, well maybe "James" sort of, but other than that no. Plus i don't have the confidence to even be sexy. Sexiness is all about confidence and that's something i don't have. I asked him why he all of a sudden stop talking to me a year ago and he said that he had bad intentions with me, and thats why he had to stop. He was dating someone at one point in time when he started talking to me again after the first time he dropped off the face of the earth. He was living with her, and he'd be calling me. I was thinking that it wasnt right, especially since he didnt want to give me his phone number, so i told him that he was cheating. He was like he didnt like the girl, and that he wanted ot leave her and couldnt. Sounds like a cheater. That's the same girl he's engaged to right now. I told him that, that i thought he said he didnt love her or something along those lines, and he was like "dang you remember everything". Then he was like "The net is just fantasty, it means nothing" but i was like folks do catch feelings ont he net and start liking folks. Because alot of times when it get to that point, the two people may want to meet. It's crazy how there's SO many people that have girlfriends or boyfriends that come on the net to flirt with people and say that it's not cheating! Is it, i dont know, but it seems to be cheating when you cant let your girlfriend or boyfriend know that you're doing it. The internet sucks, and BP sucks! The only good thing that i've gotten out of it so far is my friend Paul thats up in Detroit that i met through BP (Though we havent actually met yet) 3 years ago, and "James". Oh well. I've written WAY TOO MUCH again, and i'm gonna stop here. My thoughts always sound jumbled together and like i'm just rambling on, but that's just me. Anyways, ya'll can leave ya'll thoughts on this, i'd be surprised if you read the whole post, but if you're like me, i like to read, so i usually read people's post all the way through, even if it takes me a minute. Have a blessed night! :-)
You know you're from Chicago when...
I did NOT make this up, cuz some of the stuff i don't may apply to black folks from Chicago.....i actually got this from www.classmates.com from a forum that was under the high school i graduated from like a couple years ago...i have it on my BP page ....but i figured that i'd post this after reading Chevonne's post today...stuff i added is in purple, so here it goes...(i still didnt find out who that stalker is though, i'm working on it, and when i find out, they're gonna get it!)You’re from Chicago when...........- You don’t pronounce the "S" at the end of Illinois and you become irate at people who do.
- You measure distance in minutes.
- You have no problem spelling or pronouncing "Des Plaines".
- Your school classes were canceled because of cold.
- Your school classes were canceled because of heat.
- You’ve ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.
- Stores don’t have sacks, they have bags.
- You end your sentences with an unnecessary preposition. (Example: "Where’s my coat at?" or "If you go to the mall I wanna go with.").
- You can locate Illinois on the United States map.
- Your idea of a great tenderloin is when the meat is twice as big as the bun and accompanied only by ketchup and a dill pickle slice.
- When asked how your trip was to any foreign, exotic place, you say "It was different."
(This is how i am about anything thats not Chicago, lol).- You carry jumper cables in your car.
-You drink "Pop".
- You realize that I-290, I-90, I-94, and I-294 are all different roads.
- You refer to any interstate highway as "the tollway".
- You know the names of the interstates: Stevenson, Kennedy, Eisenhower.
- You refer to anything South of I-80 as "Downstate"
(Shoot, anything south of Chicago to me is country).
- You refer to Lake Michigan as "The Lake".
- You refer to Chicago as "The City".
- No matter where you are, when you hear the term "Downtown" you immediately assume they’re talking about Downtown Chicago.
- You have two favorite football teams: The Bears, and anyone who beats the Packers.
- You buy "The Trib".
- You know what goes on a Chicago Style Hot Dog.
- You know what Chicago Style Pizza REALLY is.
- You know why they call Chicago "The Windy City"
(Damn that wind-chill factor! When that "hawk' come up on you, that ain't no joke).
- You understand what "lake-effect" means.
- You know the difference between Amtrak and Metra, and know whichstation they end up at.
- You have ridden the "L"
(The "El", the elevated train/subway system in the Chi, the CTA. The CTA, Metra, PACE bus, and Amtrak is NOT the same. CTA is in Chicago Transit Authority, public transportation, the buses and el's that go through Chicago. The Metra goes from Chicago all the way out to the far suburbs. The PACE bus runs in the Burbs and sometimes go to the edge of the city. Amtrak, you know goes all around the country, but one Amtrak stop is Chicago, downtown, Union Station, youi know where Larenz Tate was running in after Nia Long in "Love Jones".).- You can distinguish between the following area codes: 847, 630, 773,708, 312, & 815 and know what parts of the city and suburbs they’re for.
- You know what the phone number is to Empire Carpet.
(My own that I've added)-You hate that dumb ass "Eagle Man" commercial.-You know the lyrics to the Moo and Oink commercial (Black folks know this one).
Happy 3 years of blogging/Happy Valentines Day/I have a stalker!
Yes i have a stalker as of today...well it has to be someone i know, but i'll get back to that in a minute...
Happy Valentines Day people! Also happy 3 years of blogging for me (Though i've never blogged consistently)! I guess i feel ok today, not like i've felt in the past (2002) , (2003) , i didnt post nothing v-day of 2004, because i didnt log onto here for like 6 months, but anyways...i'm by my self today, but that's ok...i guess i kinda sort of have someone, but as of now we're just friends...either way he'd be too far away and we couldn't hang with each other...i havent been feeling a lil jealous today...good thing i havent seen anyone carrying flowers, teddy bears, ballons, or candy.....but i'm going ot be ok...it is just another day....
now as for this stalker....sometime at like 12:56am i got a text message from someone saying "Wake up Toya"...i didnt get the message until i woke up around 6:30am, so i texted the person back asking who they were, and they didnt reply...i texted them again, and they didnt reply, so i called them from my cell, then i called them *67...this was all before 7am...i called them that early because i thought it was my friend "James"...i thought that he finally got his own cell, so thats why i caleld back...this person never picked up or responded, but then again i was wondering could it be "James" because the area code was 773 (Chicago) and not the areacode for the suburb he's in...but that doesnt matter because i'm 5.5 hours away at school and my area code is still 773 for my cell.....so i called the number that was on the text message again and they never answered, so i went to work. Around 9:30am i got a text from this person saying "LOL" and pretty much through the course of the day they pretty much told me that i wouldnt figure out who they were....i was thinking it was "James' messing around (which i hope it isnt)...or my best friend back home...but i still didnt figure out who it was....they told me to give up...i gave off a long list of names trying to guess who it was and they said that they werent ont he list...i told them that i was going to block their number, and they said to do so, and they stopped texting me, but me having to know everything and figure stuff out, i continuned to text them and they said "thank you for your time and energy you're using on me"...that was starting to piss me off and i'm still pissed....i was thinking "who could this be?" because i don't give my number out to just anyone...it could possibly be someone i've chatted with on the net before that's from Chicago, because i have given my number to maybe a few folks i use to chat with over like 2 years ago, but then again, i don't know about...in that case it has to be someone i havent chatted with in a long time...or it could be someone i know right now...i was thinking it was my brother playing, i was thinking he probably just got a new cell phone, but i asked him and he said no......
I was getting upset at work, well irritated and annoyed, so i started trying to search up the cell phone number on the net (my boss wasnt at work today so i was able to get on her computer)...all i could get was that it was based in Chicago and was from T-Mobile.....this was really getting frustrating...so i was on and off texting this person from like 9:30 am until about 4pm.....i had my friend call from her 618 area code which is Carbondale,a nd they texted me back saying "You think i'm dumb and would fall for answering that call? i know that's a Carbondale number"...so ok, this person know's who i am, what my name is, and that i'm in Carbondale.....so it has to be either someone i go to school with or someone that i know back home...also the last text they sent me said "you should be more outgoing like this in real life" because i proceeded to cuss them out and call them a homo, and a asshole (shame on me) i called them a homo because i figured if it was a dude he'd get mad, now if it was some girl, then i have no clue, unless it's my cousin messing with me or my friend (if they got new cell's that is)....
so this person know's my name, know's i'm in Carbondale, and know's that i'm shy, and not very outgoing...wtf???? who the hell is messing with my head? i'm going crazy trying to figure out who this person is....i had my lil cousin, my mom, my friend here at school, try to call the number to see if it's a male or female that'll answer the phone, but they wont answer....i was starting to think that it was a guy from ym church back home, but he never calls me but i did give him my number a long time ago...or it could be the guy that popped up at my apartment at 11:45pm, who me and "James" call "yellow man" because of his teeth...i have no idea....but who ever it is, I'M GONNA KICK THEIR ASS WHEN I FIND OUT!
Have a very HAPPY V-DAY! :-)
Opening Night
Today is opening night for the play, "Home" by Samm-Art Williams (he writes for television now, The Fresh Prince, Martin i believe, etc.), and i'm a little nervous, but not as nervous as i was yesterday and earlier this week. Wish me luck, well not luck, but that God will guide me and have his hand in this, because i need it, to calm down the nervousness and to make sure this show go smoothly. I can't believe i'mt he stage manager! (*Getting ready*: Standby Light Cue 23 and Sound Cue D, Light Cue 23 and Sound cue D GO!) lol....I'm SO tired and havent been able to keep up with my work for school, which i already have trouble keeping up with anyways. I've been getting about 5-6 hours a sleep a night when i need about 8 or 9 hours. Tonight is the cast party, and i dont know if i'll go, i probably will, but wont stay long. The play is over with tomorrow and we have to strike the set. I got cramps which sucks and was mad when i had to go to the book store on campus and pay about $3 for 10 pads because the lil 25 cent machine in the washroom in the student center didnt work and took my dang on quarter! It was either pay $3 for some Stayfree (which are like diapers, they're so thick) or $5 for 16 Always (the ultra-thin ones)...what a rip off when i could get 22 from wal-mart for $2.22....too much info i know, and i know the guys reading this are like "ugh gross".....anyways i'm gone...hopefully this tylenol will kick in because i refuse to take aleve anymore since it's causes stomach bleeding and strokes. Have a blessed weekend!
Me
i guess i've seen something similar to this on other folks blogs...plus i have nothing to write about...
-23 year old Christian.
-From Chicago (born on the Westside: Austin neighborhood, Cicero and Lake!, lived two years of my life on the Southside: Around 51st and King Dr., i really hated that neighborhood, Grew up on the Northside: Edgewater, Rogers Park! Sheridan Rd, Devon Ave., Howard St., Clark St....people from Chicago always gotta shout out their street names, and my friends that are from Carbondale don't understand that, lol...) .
-Is a Senior (5th year) at SIUC.
- A Sagittarian.
-Favorite color is blue.
-The oldest of 4 kids (I have a brother that just turned 21 last week, and my father got remarried so i have a 12 yr old sister and a 3 year old sister).
-Parent were divorced in 1987.
-The oldest grandchild on my father's side of the family, and one of the oldest on my mother's side.
-Terrified of spiders.
-Scared of dogs.
-Scared of any bugs or insects with alot of legs, like centipedes.
-Scared of death.
-A Theater major (no i dont act).
-Is, well use to be, extremely shy (but i still am sometimes).
-I'm a introvert.
-Use to want to be a sciencetist when i grow up.
-Use to collect bug when i was little (only worms, snails, small slugs, grasshoppers, lightning bugs, and potato bugs, the ones that roll into a bug when you touch them, butterflies).
-Sort of scared of all bugs now.
-Has eaten rabbit, squirel, and deer (because my grandparents are from Arkansas, and yes rabbit taste like chicken).
-Had frog legs (they taste like chicken too).
-Had a pet cat that i use to be scared of at first from 1993 until 2001 (my mama had to move so she didnt take the cat with her, it's with my brother's friend, i think i did a post on that a couple of years ago).
-Loves music (Especially Old School stuff from the late 60's and 70's and early 80's, RnB, not this new RnB, some NeoSoul artist, some hip hop, and Gospel).
-Some of my favorite artist are Stevie Wonder, Donny Hathaway, Michael Jackson, the Jackson 5, Timbaland, Missy Elliot, Alliyah, R. Kelly (even though he's a Chester Chester Child Molestor, i refuse to throw away his Cd's, the boy is bad, well his old stuff was, not this RnB thug crap), El Debarge, Earth Wind and Fire, The O'Jays, The Isley Bros., Prince, Luther Vandross, Anita Baker, Erykah Badu, Musiq Soulchild, The Fugees, Lauryn Hill, etc.
-Was depressed for a very long time, as far back as i can remember, maybe back to 5th grade, possibly 3rd or 4th grade.
-Just now getting out of my depression for the last 2 years.
-In the choir at church.
-Just now slowly breaking out of my shell.
-Still a virgin.
-Will still say i'm a virgin though i had oral sex performed on me (TMI i know) in August of 2004 which i wish never happened (but i just let dude do it, i regret it though) Sorry God!
-Wanted to remain a total virgin until marriage, so none of the above will not happen until then.
-Never had a boyfriend.
-Had my first kiss after my first year of college, i was 19.
-Had my second kiss this past August of 2004 (by the guy mentioned above, a mistake!).
-Had my third kiss in this past December 2004, buy the guy i was talking about in this post, but i didnt kiss him back.
-Had my fourth kiss January this year by James.
-Only been on one real date, and that was with James (the other's don't count, which was only like 4 anyways).
-Had social anxiety, which i use to always talk about on here in the past a couple years ago.
-Use to wet the bed for a long time, way into high school, embarrasing, that's why i never had a sleep over or went to sleep over someone's house.
-Feels that my relationship with God isnt where it should be at and really wants to work on it, but sometimes i dont know how to start.
-Doesnt have as good of a relationship with my brother as i would like, i feel that he hates me (he holds so much anger).
-Doesnt have the best relationship with my father, he's a stubborn asshole, but i love him to death (i guess i'll always be a daddy's girl).
-My father stabbed my mother in her sleep thats why they got divorced (he was on those drugs and obsessed with her).
-My parents were seperated before they got a divorced because my father started using drugs.
-My mother, brother, and i lived in a shelter for a short time after her and my father got divorced.
-Even though my father stabbed my mama, after the divorce she still let him see us, when i know alot of other folks wouldn't (talk about forgiving someone).
-My mother has sacrificed alot for taking care of me and my brother, had to give up school when she tried to go to college when no one else, not even her mother or sisters, would watch us.
-My mother is now finally getting the chance to go back to school.
-I love my mommy and brother SO much and my world would crumble if i didnt have them.
-Loves to hear my grandparents talk, i learn so much from them! The wisdom!
-Use to play the piano from about age 5 or 7 up until 12th grade (i plan on getting back into playing it).
-Afraid of being alone when i'm old and dying alone.
-Afraid of never being able to marry and have kids.
-Use to want to own my own production company, a dream i may still reach.
-Doubts my self alot.
-Has low self esteem.
-Thought that i was ugly for a long time.
-Never had alot of friends, maybe 1 or 2 growing up (but they wasnt very good friends).
-Never had a friend whose shoulder i could cry on.
-Was always the tallest girl in class.
-Use to wear big clothes to cover up my shape (now i like my shape, though i could lose a few pounds).
-Nags sometimes, especially to my brother, and he hates it (but i only do it because i love him dearly, i want him to do whats best for him).
-Has 3209842380 first cousins because my mama is one of 9 kids, only have 2 first cousins on my father's side.
-Has a problem with being late alot.
-Is VERY impatient, something that i've been trying to work on.
-Is scared of germs and hates public restrooms.
-Loves chocolate.
-Thinks Chris Webber, Morris Chestnut, Borris Kujo, and Craig David are some of the finest men alive.
-Loves Basketball!
-Use to play basketball for 2 years in high school (only on the Fro-Soph team, and i sucked at it! Stll couldnt make a layup right after 2 years)
-Use to really hate Valentines Day, but thinks that i'm cool with it now.
-Hopes i will be able to have a relationship with this special person in my life right now, even though he's back home 5.5 hours, well 6.5 hours away.
-Talks WAY too much for someone who's so quiet! :-)
-The End.
This is really sad. This guy need's alot of prayer, seriously. I pray that God heals his mind.
R&B Singer Houston Gouges Eye Out After Apparent Suicide Attempt
Singer attempted to jump out of hotel window.
by Rashaun Hall, with additional reporting by Sway Calloway and Joseph Patel
After being thwarted in a suicide attempt in a London hotel room, R&B singer Houston gouged his own eye out.
On Thursday Houston attempted to jump out of a 13th-floor hotel window but was stopped by his security personnel, sources close to the singer said. He was moved to a lower floor and locked in his room, where he injured himself. Additional details are still coming to light, and photographs of his injury are circulating online.
The Los Angeles native, born Houston Summers IV, was overseas for a series of performances when the incident occurred. He scored a hit last year with "I Like That," which featured Chingy and Nate Dogg and was used in a McDonald's commercial (see
"Houston Scores Club Hit With Help From Chingy, Nate Dogg"). His debut album, It's Already Written, was certified gold a month after its release in August.
"Our thoughts and prayers are with Houston during this tragic time," a Capitol Records spokesperson said.
Los Angeles radio station KKBT-FM's K-Sly, who appeared in the "I Like That" video and is close to Houston's camp, said the singer had been under psychiatric care last year for manic depression. Another source corroborated that claim, adding that Houston had also struggled with PCP.
"I was told he wanted to commit suicide and stabbed his eye out," K-Sly said. "He was telling people he was Jesus and wanted to go home to his Father."
The singer is now back in Los Angeles.
Upon hearing about Houston, Bushwick Bill of rap group the Geto Boys felt compelled to speak out. In 1991, Bill forced his girlfriend to assist him in a suicide attempt, and she shot him in the eye. "Fame will make you crazy," Bill said in a statement. "Fame isn't for everybody. There are people who have a fear of fame, those who want fame, and those who don't understand fame. It drives them crazy, because it is a lot of responsibility to be all things to all people, and you can lose yourself in the shuffle, where there are no longer 52 cards in the deck."
This report is provided by MTV News
http://www.vh1.com/news/articles/1496457/02022005/houston.jhtml
I'm a Stage Manager
YES! *EXCITED!!!!!!!!* YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I was sitting in this lab, where i'm still at, at about 5pm and listened to my voice mail for my cell. I got a voice mail from my Stage Management teacher from last semester who is also the teacher for my Practicum class this semester. He asked for me to call him back. I was sort of nervous because is tarted to wonder if i did something wrong or what, or if he was going to ask me to do an assignment that i didnt want to do, or to switch with someone. So i called him back and he wasnt there, so the secretary left him a message. He called me back, but i missed it since my phone was on silent, and then i called him back like 5 minutes later at like 6pm (it's 7:41 right now). LOL, anyways, i called him back and he asked me what i was doing this upcoming weekend and next weekend. I told himt hat i have stuff to do at church and that i i was doing something on friday, Feb 11th (My church is throwing a Valentine Day dinner/dance, party, get together, whatever you want to call it, we're havign a sit down dinner, games, and it's semi-formal), but i had plans, but i asked him what for, and he told me that there is an opening for the Stage Manager (SM) position for the play "Home", by Samm-Art Williams, that is going to be performed on Friday, Feb 11th and Saturday, Feb. 12th.
I was like "Are you serious Bob (my teacher's name)? Do you really think that i can do this?" he asked me "Do you think you can do this?" I said "Yes i think i can but i'm a little scared and nervous". He asked me if the thigns going on at church was something i was involved in. I told him not really. We'll i am in the choir, but we sing every week and i rarely miss a rehearsal or a Sunday to sing. So he told me that the girl who was going to be the SM had to drop out of the position because she's been sick. So he was in need and looking for another SM. He said he talked to the director (who is my teacher from my directing class from last semester, see "Dumbest mistake i ever made...", and is currently my teacher now for my Topical Seminar class: Thea. 450 African and African-American Theater) and he asked him if he knew me. The director told him yes and that he thought that it would be ok for me to do the job. He told me that he asked the director if he knew that i was kind of timid, shy, and nervous alot, and he said that the director said "Yes i know, but we can work on it".
So i was thinking "Man i really want to go to this Valentine thing, i wanted to dress up cute for it too" (because i was looking for a black dress to wear for it over the weekend, but didnt find one, but i did find a suit for $32 at Famous Barr). So i told him "I'll do it!" i was so nervous and excited at the same time! So he told me that i would be ok, and that i'm helping out the production by stepping in and if i need anything or had any question just to callh im or come by his office. I couldnt believe it! I wanted to scream so bad when i got off the phone, but i just jumped up and down! He called me, my teacher who gave me a "C" in the SM class (i got an "A" in the lab portion of the class, the actual Assistant Stage Manager position), to do this job. He had enough confidence in me that i actually learned something in his class and that i could do the job. I know you guys are probably like "Why wouldnt he think that?" But i have a problem with being late, as i stated in the post below, i'm unorganized, i'm nervous alot, i lack confidence, and i'm always unsure of my self. I had him for other Practicum classes (we have to take 4 of them to graduate and i'm taking the 4th one now, which my job for that is being the light board operator for the last show) and i had him for my Drafting class for theater where we had to make blueprints of the scenery and light set up for the stage, that was about 3 years ago, and i got a "D" in that class. He told me though that since it's only 2 weeks left i dont really have that much more to do. The actors should pretty much already know there lines, but i do have to call the show because in theater the director doesnt callt he show, the SM does.
I was so happy that he called me, that i called my mama to tell her, almost screaming and talking really fast. She told me that she was happy for me (thanks mama). This has to be one of the best things that ever happened to me! I am SO excited! Though i'm nervous, i think that i can get through this. The only bad thing about being a stage mananger is that you have to be the first one there and the last one to leave. I think that they rehearse from about 6pm to 11pm. And i don't have a care, which isnt good. So for the next week and a half i will be busy as heck doing this, probably starting tomorrow, until February 12th.
Before i called my teacher back, i was looking on the theater department's website. I was looking through job opprotunities and websites they had listed to search for jobs. I was thinking to my self "Man i'll never get a SM job, or be a playwright, or a lightboard operator, or any type of theater job. I havent done much in the department since i've been here. I've wasted 5 years of my life in school just to get a degree i probably wont be able to use. What will i do after i graduate? I havent did many jobs in the department, so i dont have the experience like my peers. I havent even done a internship yet" See i was feeling pitiful for my self and thinking that i wouldnt be able to do anything and worrying about what i was going to do after graduation. Grad school is still up int he air and i didnt feel confident enough to even try to apply to any theater jobs because of my lack of experience. See how Satan was trying to make me feel? Putting all these doubts in my mind where as last semester i was feeling alot more confident with doing a SM job. I let Satan try to take away my job and doubt my self and feel like there wasnt any hope for me. But just then God stepped in and opened up this door for me. *holding back tears* I'm sensitive, lol. I wanted to cry, run, shout, jump up and down, scream, when my teacher told me that opening was available. But here Satan was trying to put doubts in my mind telling me "You cant do it, you're not organized enough, you're not prepared, you're always late. You will never be a good SM." The Devil is a LIE! But God stepped in and told me that i could do it, and i refused to let this opprotunity pass because towards the end of last semester this wasnt available to me because my teacher gave those SM positions to someone else.
I thank GOD for making me alot stronger than i was over a year or 2 ago, because if he wouldve came up to me then i wouldve probably said no and passed up a opprotunity to gain some experience. Thank you God, thank you JESUS! I want to scream SO bad in this computer lab, but i cant! LOL. This is my second post for the day, but i just had to post this after he told me. ya'll have a goodnight! :-) Wish me luck!
I'm a hypocrite...
..yes i am. This morning as i was walking to class, since i missed the bus, this guy, a old neighbor of mine, saw me while he was driving and honked at me. He was turning the corner as i was crossing the street. I held up my hands and was like "You aint gonna give me a ride?" But noooooooooo, he kept on driving. He had a girl in the car. That made me mad. Not cuz he had a girl in the car, because i dont like him, but he didnt give me a ride to campus and i guess since he had that girl in the car he didnt want to stop! Ef that! I don't want him, i just wanted a ride to campus so that i wouldnt be sweating trying to get to class! I would've gave him gas money! He lives on the same street i'm on and it takes me like 30-35 minutes to get to my class when i have to walk. He know's thats a long walk to campus, but that negro didnt give me a ride. So i said "Dumb ass nigga, why he didn't give me a ride!" out of anger. UGHHHHH!@me!
LOL why did i do that? He're i am talking about "Black folks don't need to say the word nigga" and i let that word slip out my mouth! Shame on me! *hangs head down in shame* It isn't like he was obligated to give me a ride, but when you're running late to class and it's 31 degree's outside, the wind blowing, and you gotta walk for 30 minutes, you feel that you deserve that ride. I've had folks i kow see me walking before and ask me if i needed a ride and i was happy that they asked and thanked them. If i had a car i would give someone a ride if i see they're going the same way i'm going or if it's not out the way. He seent hat i had my bookbag on and was trucking. I know he was taking his behind to campus. UGH!@him and UGH@me for calling him that. Lord forgive me for i have sinned, again. Sad sad sad.....it's because of folks like me that black folks wont get anywhere *walks away with head down crying*
Anyways i got to class late and my teacher and the class (there's about 8 of us in my playwriting class) had a pool going and betted on what time i was going to walk into the class. Class started at 9:35am. I got to class at 9:41. I ended up late and sweaty (ewwwwww). I walked in and my teacher passed 8 cents to the girl at th end of the table. There were different times on the blackboard, 9:36, 9:41, 9:45, 9:48, 9:50, on the board as to what time i would make it to class. Damn those theater people! Damn them! I can't believe they placed a bet on me! My teacher is an asshole, he's the whole ass! He's such a jerk...i mean he's cool sometimes, but he can be a ass. He'll tell you that too. This is the 4th time i've had him, and he's the only playwriting teacher here. He's like that with everyone, smh@that, so it's not just me he's picking on. And i'm the only black person in the class (you know that don't look good. Folks already think black folks are late for everything)! Was that some type of indirect racism? (lol@black folks always calling something racism) Naw that's because my a** is always running late for something. This is a problem i've had since like 3rd grade! SMH@ CP Time.
Father God, Lord Jesus, please help me! Help me with this lateness disease! I need to get better! With not being a hypocrite, letting the word nigga slip out, and being late! The thing is I really do HATE being late for stuff and i get mad if someone is late coming to get me and i have to wait on them or if i go to something (a play, concert, something on campus run by black folks, a church program, whatever) and it's starting late. I expect stuff to start ON TIME and not be 30 minutes to a hour late. But it's ok for me to come late to class. SMH. No i really do hate being late to class, because i hate the way the teacher looks at me. I really makes me feel bad. I've been trying to break it for the last 9 years! Someone help me! Sad, sad, sad, i know...
