THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

hey people wassup, i see i have posted nothing in a while, almost 3 weeks but anyways i'm back at school now, chillin in my new apartment, lol, well my trailer, listening to jim crow "holla at a playa" (lol that song is so dumb, but its just funny to me i dont know why, but i really don't like their group name), but my place is nice, but there was alot crap that happened when i first cam down here last saturday on august 11th.......

well first off when i came down a day before my cousin that was on saturday night, we got down to Carbondale from Chicago at like 7:30pm, ok where get here, the sun went down and all, but its still light out, there was NO water or lights in the place im like what the hell, so i call my cousin on my cell phone, she calling around to try and see what happened, but the people that own the trailer park couldnt turn that on, and they was closed, and the electric company and water company was closed, so me, my mama and step father ended up staying at the Best Inn for the night, which was pretty nice, but i've never been to a motel before so i always thought they were dirty, lol i dont know why, but you know how like they show on tv programs, but anyways, we left there before 12pm, around 11 or 11:30am sunday, and my mama took me shopping at wal-mart for some stuff for our place, since my cousin's b/f left his keys down here with his friend cuz he was up in Chicago too, we went to his place, so my mama and step father waited with me there until about 1:30pm, so i went to see how far it would be fore me to walk to campus, well to the student center it took about 20 minutes, so some of my classes are like 5-10 minutes from there, so then my mama got to Chicago before my cousin even got down to here and when i called her, my cousin, she said that she been left out and was on the road, lol she musta lied, cuz she got down to Carbondale at like 9pm, and my mama got to Chicago at like 7:30, its the same time lenght, its only like a 5 and a half hour drive, but anyways, her and her boyfriend got in at like 9 om, and it was so boring there cuz he had no cable and we was watching the same movies over, and i was by my self there from like 1:30-9pm, so i was really bored......

so ok then we stay there until like tuesday cuz i got up that morning to check if the lights FINALLY came on, cuz i had to get them on in my name cuz the light company was on some bull shit with my cousin's account, and we got the water and phone on monday, so all we was worrying about was cable, so we was just buying lil things we needed, we been in here for about a week now, since last tuesday, so its still a lil junky, but way better then it was, i just need s lil stand or cabinate to put my lil knick knacks at and we need a vacuum cleaner for the carpet, but other then that, everything is cool now........

i started class yesterday, i with to my first class it was Ethics it was ok, it seemed like it was gonna be interesting, but i dont like the fact that we only have 4 papers and no test, i rather take the test then have all of those papers, and they have to be 6-8 page papers, ugh, now don't get my wrong i like to write, but only creaive writing or informal writing, i hate research papers and analyzing books and stuff, but anyways, i missed my Psychology class that was later on that day, cuz i didnt feel good, but i'ma go tomorrow, cuz i need to start this year off right, cuz i dont wanna make the mistakes i made the last 2 years, but i went to class today, i had a Black American Studies class which seems like it will be really interesting, cuz its just dealing with black culture in the U.S, so i think that i will really enjoy this class this year, also, i had a 20th century history clas thats a retake cuz i got a D in it my 1st year, but since i do have the credit hours for that class i think ima drop it and either take the creative writing class that i wanted or retake the english class i got a D in this last semester cuz i needed to at least get a C but i dont know yet, i'll figure it out by tomorrow.......

but walking to class today i almost fell out, but today it took me a while well i walk fast and i still got to class in 20 minutes, instead of the 30 minutes that i thought it would takei thought i was gonna have a heart attack, i should've been ready earlier so i didnt have to rush, and since i walk fast anyways i couldnt help it, and on the way back to my place i was walking fast i was thinking OMG i was about to pass out, so i needed to slow it down, plus it was hot out, about 90 degrees, but when i got in i had to turn up the air and drink alot of water then i passed out on the bed, well i flopped, not passed out, but i had to lay down for a few, about 20 minutes, then i got my water.........

oh yea something funny happened yesterday, well its funny now, it wasnt yesterday, but i was walking from class yesterday i went to walk down the street where i can get to my place quicker then the long way, why the hell did 2 dogs that just popped up outta no where was across the street, no owner in site, they ran across the street to where i was, i was scared as hell, cuz im really scarted of dogs and spiders, but they following me and im so nervous, but i try not to be cuz dogs sense fear they say, but i couldnt help it i was about to pass out cuz i was so nervous and i was starting to hyperventilate, so i walk across the street, one of the dogs followed me over to there i was getting scared, cars coming and shit, im walking in the middle of the street and people acting like they wanna run me over, so i walk back across the street to where i was at first, and i was praying to God that that dog stayed over there and it did, cuz i was really scared, and i was about to cry, but i didnt cuz i dont like people to see me cry, so i didnt, but i was really terrified, but now it seems funny, but before it wasn't, but thats all thats been going on so ima go now, hopefully i'll have something more interesting to write about cuz this doesnt seem like much, lol, but anyways peace people and God bless.....

posted by Toya @ 6:22 PM 0 comments

well hey people, i havent done much this week, well yes i have lol, well the last 2 days i did.....on wednesday i went to go see my aunt thats in jail, i havent seen her in about 3 years, so it was really good to go see her....she's been in for about 12 years, thats a long time, we all miss her alot, and its hard to and see her because she's about 3 hours downstate.....well she is doing fine and she has about 14 months left....she says she cant take another year in there....i wont go all into why she's in jail because that isnt people bizniz, but we will just be glad when she gets out.....

so me, my aunt thats outta town from maryland, and my 2 lil cousins went down to see her.....we played some cars games, talked caught up on some things that's been going on with us, we left well my aunt came to pick me up at around 6am, cuz she's staying at my other aunt house, and she took 2 of my other aunt's 3 kids with us, lol, my lil cousins are so silly, they had me cracking up driving there, their 14 and 11, the boy 14 and the girl 11, i remember when they were babies, and they grew up so fast.....and its good to talk with my grandma, these are family on my mama's side....well my grandma is 60 and about to be 61 this year, and my aunt, it's good to see her, she's been in maryland for about 5-6 years, and she always come back home to chicago to visit, but she's going back to maryland on this saturday......

well today, well yesterday since it is 3:32am and a new day....we went to the mall around my house out in the burbs, in lincolnwood, its not that far about a 15 minute drive since i am still in the city, but close to the city limits....i bought me some shoes out of Parade of shoes, they are cute, their black with a mule heel, about 2 inches, and they have a strap to go around my leg, i needed to get them since i can barely find shoe's in my size which i wont say what it is, lol, and i got me a cut lil messenger bag from old navy....we hit the mall at about 4 something pm, maybe 4:30pm, well thats when she picked me up, we sat and ate at the food court, i hand me a cheese burger, cheese fries, and a chocolate milk shake, then later i had a red ICEE cuz it was hot, that was before we left the mall, my aunt and her friend, that drove up with her, bought some inscents, they have a cool water inscent that smells really good, then we was just talking, lol my aunt was talking about all the fights she use to have.....

it was just good to get out the house, you know, since i go out much....then we went to go downtown to Buchanham (sp) foutain [lol its a shame i dont know how to spell landmarks in Chicago, smh, lol], you know the fountai that was in "LOVE JONES" with lorenz tate and nia long, and the fountain thats at the beginning of "MARRIED WITH CHILDREN", since that show was suposed to be set in Chicago.....well its downtown, it looks pretty at night time cuz they light up the lights so the water be different colors, then they shoot the water up real high, since it was hot, like every summer there was alot of people out down there around the fountain, and since the wind blows it blows the water all over, and that felt good, cool us down a bit, since it was about 90 something degrees.....then we came back to my house and i made my aunt and her friend some cd's since i have about 800 songs, not as much as my friend trevon since he has over 1,000, lol but its enough, and as soon as i get dsl, cable or the ethernet again, ima catch up to him, lol, but i mad about 6 cd's for them 3 cd's each, i shouldve charged them lol, but thats ok i gave it to them for free, they left about a lil over a hour ago to go back to my aunts house, cuz thats where they staying at, she's not too far from my mom's house, thats where im staying for the summer.....

oh yea i go back to school in about 9 days, im kinda excited, a new year to start fresh, and i will finally have my own room, lol, i go back on the 10th......well i didnt go straight to sleep, as ya'll can see since im still on here, cuz i am tired, but i had to get online and chat with my people on AOL and chat with my people on BP, i chatted with dude, mr eat n run im cool with that now, maybe he just didnt know how to tell me that he had a girlfriend and didnt want to hurt my feelings, or maybe he didnt think about that at all, since they say guys are dumb, lol, but im cool and ima move on, and he's still cool i seen he got another BP page and shouted me out (sorry if you ever read this, and you know who you are, but i was mad, but hey we still cool, and besides, dont no one know im talking about you, lol, so dont worry, lol), so no beef, lol well on my side cuz i dont think he ever had beef with me, or if he knew i had it, but im cool now and its forgoten, but i dont think if we did go out it wouldnt had worked out since i am still a virgin, lol, yea a 20 year old virgin, you dont find many of them around now.....

not saying cuz im a virgin, but since im not having sex, what guy would wanna be with me? and i wouldnt want to be pressured into having none, ya know.....but hopefully the Lord will have someone out there for me....my friend was trying to hook me up with this dude from her job thats' her friend's friend that works there also, but i met the guy, his name is jerry on monday, he seemed cool, but he's just as shy as i am.....i called him about 2 times, cuz i was waiting on him to call, but he didnt, well i dont think he did, and my friend said he said it seemed like i didnt wanna talk to him, but then i didnt the way my friend was, she was like "well you give her your number and you give him yours"...so i just stood there looking at her like what the hell she doing, then i guess i didnt move fast enough for her, so she wrote down my number for me and gave me his, smh, we was at their job, but im like ok, but like i said he seems cool, they said he's a nice guy, and all, but we will see, but i dont think im really feeling him, maybe if i actually talk to him i would, but the 2 times that ive called him, he didnt pick up or have an answering machine or nothing, but thats ok.....

the 18 year old i still havent caught, i called about 4-5 times, and didnt no one pick up, but oh well, he was still 18 and in high school, he was fine though, real cute, lol, but i cant be messing with lil boys, i dont wanna be a R. Kelly, lol, but i go back to school, and hopefully new and great things will come my way, im looking at the time and its like 4:01 am, i shouldve been had my butt in the bed, knowing that i gotta wash clothes, lol, but anyways im out for now, i'll try to write more everyday, but probably not, lol, and i know my blogs might be confusing since i dont be using the right punctuation, but when im up and in the day time and rested and my mind is straight, thats when i'll use it, lol, ok im outtie, goodnight people.....

posted by Toya @ 4:10 AM 0 comments