THINGS I'M GETTING OFF MY CHEST & OTHER THINGS...

Racism even today

I found this article online, it's amazing that people our age are even saying filth like this. I guess racism isn't dead eh?:

Omega Psi Phi subjected to racist insults at the University of South Carolina
by James WrightDecember 19, 2005

One of the oldest Black Greek letter fraternities is challenging a rash of racist Internet messages posted on a national fraternity/sorority Web site.

The Zeta Zeta chapter of Omega Psi Phi Fraternity, based on the campus of the University of South Carolina, has been the subject of bigoted and derogatory postings regarding its move to the all-White Greek Village. The area mainly comprises mansion-like houses owned by predominately White fraternities and sororities.

Omega Psi Phi, founded at Howard University in 1911 by three undergraduate students and noted scientist Ernest Just, has more than 100,000 members in 700 chapters in the United States, Europe, Africa, Asia and the Caribbean.

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Prominent members include the Rev. Jesse Jackson, former Virginia governor and present Richmond, Va., Mayor Douglas Wilder, NBA legend Michael Jordan, former Clinton adviser Vernon Jordan, comedian-entrepreneur Bill Cosby and the late Dr. Charles Drew.

The new house is a project of the fraternity's national organization. Scheduled for completion in the fall of 2006, it will be the first Black Greek organization to have a house in Greek Village and one of the few Black Greek houses in the country located in a predominantly White fraternity/sorority area of a major, state-sponsored university.

Lewis Anderson, director of membership services for Omega, said the fraternity is reserving comment about the messages, but he did say: 'We have made contact with the president of the University of South Carolina and have alerted the local media. We are not going to abandon the project.'

Some postings on the Internet site www.fratty.net have expressed disdain at having the Omega house or any other Black-owned facility in Greek Village:

*'The spooks, i mean Q-dawgs, are building a house' (Re: USC Greek village/Reply No. 2 on Oct 24, 6:38 p.m.).

*'There goes the neighborhood' (Re: USC Greek village/Reply No. 4 on Oct 24, 8:20 p.m.).

*'I propose throwing a cotton picking party for them when they move in. a thousand pounds of cotton in the front yard. sure jesse jackson will be here in a heart beat, but it will be funny as hell watching them pick it up' (Re: USC Greek village/Reply No. 7 on Oct 24, 11:41 p.m.).

*'That cotton idea is funny as **** and a great way to set the tone for their time here. Hopefully, the house never actually gets built, though. It will only bring loud niggers, even louder n***** b*****, and trashy *** wiggers and white-trash girls around. But hopefully Darwin was right and these spooks will wind up tearing the house down in a week or two. Much longer than that and we'll have to do it for them. What do you say guys? Heres to ridding the village of our african-american infestation' (Re: USC Greek village/Reply No. 8 on Oct 25, 1:02 a.m.).

*'I'm going to hang a black dummy out my window when they are ready to move in' (Re: USC Greek village/Reply No. 9 on Oct 25, 9:26 a.m.).

*'Hah. yall ready for this? nothing but crack viles and broken forty bottles in the street, gunshots in the middle of the night, overgrown plants and weeds on the lawn, niggers walking around with crunk chalices. Pimped-out 95 Accords, and unsanctioned parties at 4 a.m. in the morning on Tuesdays. I hope the Zetas don't discover jungle fever and hang with them negroids looking for some sex' (Re: Q-Dawgs in the Village/Reply No. 4 on Oct 23, 10:42 p.m.).

The Web site is based in California and serves as a chat board on Greek organization issues.

Dennis Pruitt, USC's vice president for student affairs, said, 'We are not going to allow students to engage in behavior that threatens or intimidates other students.'

Jerry Brewer, USC director of student life, said that the $2 million facility will contain living spaces for 40 students, plus gathering places and food service for non-resident Omega members and meeting and entertainment spaces.

USC Director of Greek Life Gena Runnion said she hopes the house spurs other organizations into action.

'That Omega Psi Phi has chosen to build a house in the Greek Village means that their organization and alumni believe in their students at the University of South Carolina and are willing to make this kind of investment, financially and otherwise,' Runnion said. 'My hope is that the construction of this house will spur other historically Black sororities and fraternities to do the same.'

James Wright writes for the Afro newspapers, a member of NNPA.

http://www.chicagodefender.com/page/national.cfm?ArticleID=3291

ok, ok, ok...it's their own website and they can have their views, but just from seeing that, it makes me start to think what do other white folks think about black folks? in 2005, October 2005...it makes no sense....

posted by Toya @ 3:38 AM 4 comments

Post Graduation

I did it. I finally did it! I graduated from College! After 5 and a half long years i finally did it! I can't believe it. Well i can believe it. but it's just so weird! I graduated this past Saturday at 1:30pm from SIU-C under the College of Liberal Arts with a BA in Theater. What will i do next? i have no clue, and if one more person ask me that, i will probably cut them! lol, just kidding, but year i did it.

Now i'm at home chilling in cold cold Chicago with cramps cuz my aunt flow came and with a cold, this sucks! Thats ok Though because i graduated! I got my family together, and it was alot of them there and my friends from church and class came out to support me! I had a wonderful time, although i was a little irritated. I know i got like a million pictures and my uncle taped it for me. I just want to thank God for letting me able to do this and thank you Jesus for the strength. After graduation we all went out to Red Lobster and sat and ate at the table. It was good to just be able to sit down with 25 of my family and friends and just have a good time.

A little later i went out with some friends to a few bars, though i didn't drink. I didn't enjoy my self then and i didn't like the cigarette smoke and the way folks was acting. Since i don't dance in front of people i couldn't enjoy my self and i didn't feel very comfortable. I don't know if i went there under pressure from my brother and friend, but i also wanted to kinda go since i don't go out like that anyways, but i really hated it and just felt so uncomfortable to a point where i wanted to cry, but only shedded a few tears. I don't know why, but i was very uncomfortable, and when i'm like that i get nervous and want to cry. But no one understood why, but that's ok. I just figured that i have to be me and not please no one else. Why compromise my self and what i say i wont do just to please others.

People don't understand why i don't like those places, but i just don't. But being me, and trying to hang with friends, i compromise and go out. Though they might say i wasn't doing anything that was compromising, but the whole thing was that i felt uncomfortable there. The smoke burned my throat and eyes and made my hair stink, and i just didn't enjoy it. I try to fit in and say "We'll i'll go to see if i like it and not be a prude" but i end up not liking it. That doesn't make me a prude, that's just me being me. I just have to find out eventually what Toya likes, and that's something i'm still searching. But for now i know i just like hanging out and chilling in the house with friends or att he resturant. I like to sit and talk and joke around. I don't have to go to a club or bar to have a good time, cuz i won'r have a good time there.

See me i'm a laid back person, so i could've just chilled at the house with friends, or go out to some place and just relax. I don't like the whole club and bar scene. I know the clubs and bars in Chicago maybe a little different, but since i don't like the cigarette smoke or dancing, i won't enjoy it, and i've told people that, but they'll always tell me "Well you haven't been to the right place". Well now i know i don't like non of that stuff. That almost ruined my day, but that's cool.

Other than that, i'm in Chicago right now. Maybe for the whole month, i don't know yet, but since i dont have a job lined up or anything, i'm going to go back to school. The only thing i have at home is a couch when i have an apartment at school. I think i'm going to meet with my daddy downtown and have lunch with him. I got some things i need to get off my chest and i also need to appologize for being rude to him. I'm not sure if i was rude to him this weekend, but for the last 6-8 years i probably have been. He's so stubborn and get on my nerves sometimes because he think he's always right and that really irritate and annoy me. But no matter what that's my father, and i guess in a way i'm still a daddy's girl, because it's hard for me to stay mad at him. So i need to appologize for that.

We talked about 40 minutes last night, and he just seemed to be so proud of me and said he knows that we don't talk as much though but he want's me to know that i just need to keep the ball rolling and continue because i'm very smart and intelligent and alot like him. He also told me that i need to be close to my 2 little sisters (one is 11 going on 12 and the other is 4). I guess it's hard for me to be close to them since they're my half sisters, and they didn't grow up with me and my brother. I guess i'm also bitter about him and my mama divorcing and him getting remarried. I realized yesterday that i'm still angry for that and bitter about it and i need to let it go. My cousin was telling me the other day about when the pastor was talking about not forgiving people. I love my daddy and i just need to let stuff go. Maybe if i tell him how i feel he won't do certain things like acting like he knows everything or saying rude stuff his self. But who knows, that could just be the type of person he is.

This weekend also my brother got to meet our 4 year old little sister for the first time. He hasn't seen her since him and our daddy haven't talked in about 6 years. My brother was still angry with my daddy, but they both talked this weekend for a bit. I hope things work out. My daddy was saying how he had a good time with seeing all his ex-inlaws, because they all grew up together since my mama and daddy grew up across the street from each other. It was like a mini family reunion, and he said he really enjoyed it and there was no hard feelings or anything, especially with what he did to my mama and the reason they got divorced. And that's the main thing i was worried about, about people getting attitudes and fussing at people and getting mad or acting funny towards one another, and there wasn't any of that. Thank you God for that because iw as really nervous about that.

Well i think i'll end this post here. I just had a wonderful weekend and i'm glad it's all over. I'm about to heat up this soup my brother got for me from Walgreens since i'm sick. UGHHHH@me always being sick and having my period when i go home! LOL TMI i know! but anyways, peace ya'll! :-)

posted by Toya @ 3:38 PM 2 comments

I'm graduating

Yep, that's right, i'm finally doing it. i've made it! through all the up and downs of these last few years, i've finally made it through college. All of my classes are done for, and i'm just chilling at work about to get off in a hour. My mama, brother, step father, and friend just got here today and are chilling at my apartment until i get off work. the rest of my family, including my father grandparents, aunts and uncles, will be coming today and tomorrow. man i really can't believe i've finally did it! i've wanted to give up so many times, but god gave me strength to just keep on going. We'll the graduation is tomorrow at 1:30pm Saturday afternoon. man. it's weird. i guess it still haven't really hit me because i'm still not as excited as i thought i'd be. i guess it will hit me in the morning when i wake up or when i finally walk across that stage. i'll probably cry since i'm sensitive. I feel tears welling up now, not sad tears, but happy relieved tears. maybe i should cabbage patch across the stage, well maybe not. Anyways, that's all that i wanted to post. I am actually graduating, and happy graduation to me! :-) peace out ya'll!

posted by Toya @ 3:35 PM 0 comments

Happy Birthday to me!

well it was actually yesterday....i didn't do anything special, just went to church like i always do since it was on a Sunday, but i think i was kinda content with just that...the service was good and they fed us afterwards....i just wanna thank God for another year! i'm 24 now, and next is 25 and after that, my grandpa said it's all down hill from there, lol, but i think i can handle it! :-)

posted by Toya @ 8:29 PM 3 comments